Neither Here Nor There

I'm up early trying to get a head start on the long list of things to do today.  I thought I would try to write down some of the things that have been whirling through my mind lately.

I've entered a very bizarre phase of living in a foreign country.  Now that the day is coming to leave, I realized, I have no future here.  Sure, I can come back at some point, but in the immediate future, this isn't my home anymore.  It's a weird feeling when you've called a certain place home for the past five years and come to the realization that it is no longer home - yet you must stay for a while longer.  I feel more like an extended-stay tourist who earns a bit of side money than a resident.

On the flip side of it, my HOME home, where I was born and raised, isn't quite my home again yet.  Being 8,000+ miles away kind of has a way of doing that.

So what does one do when the home you've known for the past 5 years is no longer home, and the home you grew up in is still too far a memory/reality?

I suppose there's only one thing to do: give it all you've got and try your best not to doubt yourself.

With that mentality, I'm I have a plethora of choices to make within the next few months.  The job hunting isn't going as well as I hoped it would.  However, it is going about as well as I thought it would.  Being half the world away seems to make it just a wee bit difficult to connect with people and convince them that I am a good investment.  So what do I do if I can't get a job?  Where would my time be best spent?  Would it be studying like crazy to pass the CPA examination as soon as I can?  Would it be spending my time split between studying and looking for a viable starting place for my career switch?

Time (and the continuation of sleepless nights) will tell, I suppose.